“Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, will never…never forget it.” Anonymous

Considering the fact that my husband and I just had another fight and I finally threw the “D” work out it seems ironic that this quote was on my I-Google page. I am a big believer in fate, forgiveness and forever but I must say those are some hard words to live by all the time!

I often find myself viewing my marriage through a thick dense fog. When will the air clear, I ask? When will I breathe easier and when will the sun shine again? I am so familiar with this roller coaster ride. I love the ups and hate the downs and as time goes on the creaking of the tracks gets louder and louder.

I started to write this article about a week ago and never finished it. I can tackle the house, the kids and the finances with ease but trying to figure out my marriage is another thing all together.  I seem to easily place the issue’s of my marriage into a nice neat box and only bring the box out when I absolutely have to.  I guess it’s easier for me to push it aside and focus on all the other issues in my life. But year after year of doing just that, pushing my marriage aside, it has finally caught up to both my husband and I.

When I first started mommymachelle, I had a link called “for better or worse”. My daughter, as a faithful reader of my blog asked me why I never put anything in that section. I told her I just didn’t have anything to write about at the time but the truth is I had so much to write about, it’s just an area of my life I didn’t want to focus on.  But what I want and what I need to do has now come to light and I have to start tackling these issue not just for the sake of my sanity but to the benefit of my children and my husband as well.

So with much resistant, I being a new chapter in my book of life.

As a mother I will always love, cherish and protect my children. This I can guarantee!


As a woman, I will always be opinionated, temperamental and indecisive. This I can also guarantee!


But more importantly than anything else right now – As a wife, I will learn to put my marriage and husband first, I will not forget how important love is and I will always remember that I have to cherish every moment with my husband because marriage isn’t a guarantee, its a privilege that cannot be taken for granted!

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So here I am sitting at the computer working and my son brings me down a piece of paper that had he found in my room. It reads:

Well this sucks! My daughter left this for me on my bed not realizing I don’t even make it to the bed most nights. She didn’t want to disturb me while I working but needed to get her point across and that she did indeed!

Trying to balance the kids, housework and working from home seems impossible at this very moment after reading her note. How do I explain to my kids that mommy is working day and night learning how the Internet works so I can make money from it to help provide a better quality of life for them? There really isn’t an explanation good enough to justify not spending more time with them. Parenting really sucks sometimes. No matter how hard you try to do right by your kids it seems as though something is there to smack you in the face. I guess one of the greatest lessons we can teach as parents is that we are not perfect, only human. To my kids, “I’m sorry for neglecting you guys and although I still have to work, I also need to take more time to hang-out with you!”[ad#ad-6]

You ever noticed no matter how hard we try to remember the great moments in our children lives, we tend to mostly retain the not so great moments. Well with that said I was reminded today how rewarding motherhood can be during one of those great moments. I was checking one my e- mail accounts and as the home page was loading, I see this message sitting there with my daughter’s name on the subject line. Oh sh– what has she done was the first thing that came to my mind as I had received messages of such nature in the past. But to my surprise it was quite the opposite. It’s nice to know that teachers are paying more attention to the positive moments our kids do create daily whether it is big or small. It’s also nice to receive a little credit in parenting because every mommy out there knows credit is long overdue. Below is the message from my daughter’s teacher and just one final comment to my daughter “GIRLFRIEND YOU ROCK!”

Machelle

Hi my name is Mr. Vincent at XXXXXX Middle School. I am currently teaching your daughter Kourtnee in World Geography. Usually whenever a teacher contacts a parent is bad news, this is not the situation. To start off Kourtnee is one of a kind, and that is probably an understatement. I would just like to compliment you on raising a wonderful daughter. In class Kourtnee brings a lot of life and energy. What is unusual is the energy is only brought out when it is appropriate. The other day I asked her if she could help a student that sits behind her that is struggling and has a hard time with school. Kourtnee said she would and today during class she worked directly with that student and it was great because when another student can help her she does not feel embarrassed or overwhelmed. If you could let Kourtnee know how great she is doing I would appreciate it, and also thank you for teaching her how to do things like this.

Mr. Vincent

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